It’s not lethargy its hedonism. The things we have to do stop us from dancing in our underpants, kissing our lovers and going skydiving.
Every single time you decide to set a little time aside for yourself, something or someone endeavours to disagree with you. It forces you to run an embarrassing obstacle course, pressure guilt and lies. Life’s hard when you’re stuck in a routine, don’t get me wrong I’m a person of creature comforts; singing whilst running that bath, bringing that special someone a box of Milky Way crispy rolls each time you visit, falling asleep in front of the DVD player (sorry hee hee XD), it’s the little things that make up life!
What I’m referring to is the essential things. The hole you dig deeper for yourself as you try to find ‘life’s true calling’ pretty soon you find that you can’t see the surface anymore and that you’re tunnelling, there’s no end in sight. I guess that’s the point when you start to think “fuck it I’ll have a margarita” you may as well do what you can to make the deadening process a little more enjoyable, then you begin to realise that margaritas are gooooooood… and before you know it your under the influence running up and down the golden sands of pleasure giggling like a monkey.
The reason that we’re not doing a 9-5 Monday to Friday anymore isn’t because we’re slobs, it’s because we’ve found something better to do. Even writing this I want to go and have a bath.
Everything starts to get on top of you and all you want to do is run away. Even if you have time to do something fun, it still manages to squirm its way in and throw up a complication. I was all set to meet a friend and go see a film after college (orange Wednesday’s rock!) but as I sit in the lesson “can you stay behind until 3 o clock?” NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! And you make up some on the spot excuse that involves your grandma and a shovel, you don’t care you just need to run. Once you’re out you don’t care, there are no consequences, until you have to go back, then everything is ten times worse. As soon as I walk through that door on Tuesday “did you do this? No! Why not? There are no excuses! Other people are relying on you”.
Living in a tunnel, always walking and never actually getting anywhere, it’s not surprising that you wanna do something different once in a while.
Thursday, 5 March 2009
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